A New Post

A long time...no a looooong time since my last post....

Well this is about a journey...a journey that I undertook...the consequences of which would seem to be different to different people...

Since I was small many people have known me(and I mean many)...but there have been only a handful who have realized that studying(in the way this system teaches) is not my cup of tea....

When I was a bit young I was made to do a lot of things that I wouldn't have done if I would have been what I am now since birth....but then...if you ask me...they had there advantages....

Now then...towards the end of class 10th I decided that Mass Comm or English Honors is what I should do...now if u know me and u are reading this u may be thinking why I took up science...simple answer...I decided that I would like to find out why people are goin into engineering for there careers...is it only the money or is there something else that drives them....so that was that...I got into this college...The School Of Engineering(the easiest one...I'm not studying remember)...what the hell could have happened...at most I wouldn't have liked what I found in engg....but then I ain't one of a kind...there ought to be someone of my kind that does the same as me....well...I did find them...but alas...every good thing has it's drawbacks...none of them were in my college....so here I was....stuck in nowhere....so now it was on with my journey....

The School Of Engineering : College is supposed to be a new place where you meet many new and different kinds of people right...well...not here...here...you meet many new people all right but if you have met one of them...u have met almost all(or they all behave as if they are all the same)....now I can't really describe them...since I'm not sure if it's just me or are they actually as bad as I find them to be...can college be this bad...this isn't what I had heard till today...from the teachers to the students...all have that one thing in common...they are all stupid...
Now I have never till date even dared to think myself to be better than somebody that I meet the first time...but this college....well...it just makes me do so....

So that's it....I'm stuck here...and I don't really mind...I mean sometimes experiments go wrong...I've never believed in god...but I have found my saviors...in the form of some people I know...some new...some old...

Q. Why did I write this ??
A. I have my reasons....

Dunno what to call this...Don't even know if it's poetry....comments plz....

Those empty skies I looked up to
are now filled with the face of you
But I stand alone thinking and afraid
Will this be like it was the last time ?

Will it be that I'll be forgotten
will it be that I'll be discarded
Will I again live on those instances of her
Or will I be this time subdued

Can I ever win her love
Can I be the man in her mind
Can I finally be completed
Or will I be this time depleted

Will time be on my side this time
Will this fire stay on
Or will this confusion play on
I'm in love but emptiness is still around me
I'm afraid that it will surround me
How can I share this fire in me with her
How can I be brave,how do I tell her


I'm thinking of you night and day
Waiting for that someday
The lights are still glowing
I'll stop them from fading
Till then I hope she'll be waiting

Awakening(this one seems incomplete doesnt it ??)

Live by thy rules
escape thy fear
get up move on....don't waste a tear
Taste defeat but stand vindicated
I'm no god but i just indicated
Live today not tommorow
If not.......u'll add to ur sorrow
these words I have as my own
will make me live on till u've known
that feelings stay on,the heart never dies
You can keep defying my cries

The Way...The Life

I found a way
to run away
there's no need
i'm being pushed away

Kill me before I die
tell me to go...don't care to lie
I can sway to the laughter
I've burned those tears
i'll be gone and u won't even hear

You can never be a part of me
You'll never know how this feels
There are no days...only nights
I'll move on....u grab the light

Remember these words when you think of me
If not friends...these words I keep for me
So go ahead and make my day
I won't blame you when in my grave I lay.......

Living Nightmare

The city in my dream
where I live and I scream
where the fragrance of the dead
is more than of the flower bed
where tears make the rain
and the mother serves the pain

Here picnics are on the graveyard
and battles on the fields
Soldiers on havoc's courtyard
with their funeral song on their shields

The rose has no petal
it's thorns made of metal
Just another weapon
to tear the heart open
Of the caretaker who is dead
by the undertaker who is the head

Flames burn the trees
the mother drops to her knees
it's her son's creation
her son's now dead
The end of the world
she sees in her head

Wake up from the nightmare...oh foolish man
You are engulfed by violence
Decreasing your own lifespan

Final Chapter

Woke up in the middle of the night
thinking of my terrible plight
i'm growing darker as u grow bright
i'm fading in da shadows away from the light

didn't believe in god
so the devil made my decision
its quite odd
how he's killing me with precision

For me a grave is vacated
I'll soon become belated
My days of hate are coming to an end
I'm taking the final bend......

Another Unnamed.....oblige plz....

My thots are surreal
my life becoming unreal
get ready for my burial
i'm on satan's trial

so love me when i'm gone
though u left me in my fall
I still try to crawl
hope I can stand tall

my love for u became my enemy
and urs never saw me
I waited for u while it was bright
but cudn't ignore darkness with all my might

my casket of emotions
my path to demotion
concealed wid my grave like an old notion

I put this in words
da only thing I say mine
broken are my chords
in hell next time I dine......