Dunno what to call this...Don't even know if it's poetry....comments plz....

Those empty skies I looked up to
are now filled with the face of you
But I stand alone thinking and afraid
Will this be like it was the last time ?

Will it be that I'll be forgotten
will it be that I'll be discarded
Will I again live on those instances of her
Or will I be this time subdued

Can I ever win her love
Can I be the man in her mind
Can I finally be completed
Or will I be this time depleted

Will time be on my side this time
Will this fire stay on
Or will this confusion play on
I'm in love but emptiness is still around me
I'm afraid that it will surround me
How can I share this fire in me with her
How can I be brave,how do I tell her


I'm thinking of you night and day
Waiting for that someday
The lights are still glowing
I'll stop them from fading
Till then I hope she'll be waiting

Awakening(this one seems incomplete doesnt it ??)

Live by thy rules
escape thy fear
get up move on....don't waste a tear
Taste defeat but stand vindicated
I'm no god but i just indicated
Live today not tommorow
If not.......u'll add to ur sorrow
these words I have as my own
will make me live on till u've known
that feelings stay on,the heart never dies
You can keep defying my cries

The Way...The Life

I found a way
to run away
there's no need
i'm being pushed away

Kill me before I die
tell me to go...don't care to lie
I can sway to the laughter
I've burned those tears
i'll be gone and u won't even hear

You can never be a part of me
You'll never know how this feels
There are no days...only nights
I'll move on....u grab the light

Remember these words when you think of me
If not friends...these words I keep for me
So go ahead and make my day
I won't blame you when in my grave I lay.......

Living Nightmare

The city in my dream
where I live and I scream
where the fragrance of the dead
is more than of the flower bed
where tears make the rain
and the mother serves the pain

Here picnics are on the graveyard
and battles on the fields
Soldiers on havoc's courtyard
with their funeral song on their shields

The rose has no petal
it's thorns made of metal
Just another weapon
to tear the heart open
Of the caretaker who is dead
by the undertaker who is the head

Flames burn the trees
the mother drops to her knees
it's her son's creation
her son's now dead
The end of the world
she sees in her head

Wake up from the nightmare...oh foolish man
You are engulfed by violence
Decreasing your own lifespan

Final Chapter

Woke up in the middle of the night
thinking of my terrible plight
i'm growing darker as u grow bright
i'm fading in da shadows away from the light

didn't believe in god
so the devil made my decision
its quite odd
how he's killing me with precision

For me a grave is vacated
I'll soon become belated
My days of hate are coming to an end
I'm taking the final bend......

Another Unnamed.....oblige plz....

My thots are surreal
my life becoming unreal
get ready for my burial
i'm on satan's trial

so love me when i'm gone
though u left me in my fall
I still try to crawl
hope I can stand tall

my love for u became my enemy
and urs never saw me
I waited for u while it was bright
but cudn't ignore darkness with all my might

my casket of emotions
my path to demotion
concealed wid my grave like an old notion

I put this in words
da only thing I say mine
broken are my chords
in hell next time I dine......

Suggest A Title For This One please...

Behind ur hazel eyes
there lies a cheat
stealing hearts is ur big feat
playing with emotions
ur headin towards demotion
u and ur soul in parallel motion

hell's soon gonna be ur home
take gud care of ur glitter dome
a supernova's heading towards u
take a note of these words when its through

laws of love u defy
fakeness u amplify
on illusions u thrive
the black chariot u drive

but soon u'll be defied
ur tombstone now can't be denied

RETURNING

U've seen my demise
U caused my fall
but don't believe this illusion
i still stand tall
u hate me today....it'll be more tomorrow
i am layin ur path to sorrow

when i cried
u fought to induce more pain
my tears made the falling rain
the pain was too much to tame
burnin me.....an inferno....a giant flame

like a pheonix....i'm risin from the burn
u'll beg for mercy from my urn
this land of make believe will believe me
and u my frnd won't ever deceive me

To Whom It May Concern

They say time flies

I say....what lies!!!

Coz without u life's reaching a halt

I feel like I’m trapped inside a vault

Like an angel on a bright sunny day

Making people smile and gay

U r the one that makes me live another day

ur like the moon

on a full moon night

Piercing thru the darkness

And showing ur light

ur voice is melody

ur words...the song

May u someday....to me belong....

Infinitie’s End

The curtain falls

On an act of my play

School is over

It’s time to call it a day

Time has brought me

To a place far away

A place where my emotions

Come into play

Memories that I was wanting

Some haunting, some daunting

Fun and frolic also I do remember

My teachers….hard but tender

This building

With it’s incomplete look

Will always be in me

Like a fish in a brook

But the pain

Is in leaving these friends

All of us will remain

My friends I thank you all

For all this time

We spent in crime

For all the times

That we shared together

For all the times

I will always remember

I wish I could

Relive this long day

With my friends

All nice and gay

But this is life

Unkindly kind

Making it all

A dream in my mind

Prison and reason

Entangled is my word

Entangled are my feelings,

with my thought, I am lost,

In this darkness,

That’s deeper than hell’s deepest slot.

I try to get out

With all my might

But this numbing sensation

Just defies my strongest fight

And I have to sleep

And live, in my own prison

But it’s not my decision.

I strike the bars

But they just seem to get harder…..

then the thoughts come again

And take me into a larder,

My own feelings

Get the best of me,

All that I can see

Is a grayish side of me.

But then a small spec

Of light floods the floor

And I hear a friend

Say, hi…hello,

A new hope

Joins the pieces of my heart with desire

I fight away the darkness

And emerge with my heart….ON FIRE.

I reach out

For u my friend,

Who pulled me out,

Of my own prison

My own hateful vision

But then u pushes me,

Through the door again

And just as the lock clicks

U fades away

I still thank u

Though the devil u were

This fire will now guide me,

In this endless war,

I will return

And soar like the wind,

And I will return all that

U ever gave me,

Will pay in full

Every coin I will return

U will hope that u didn’t live at all

Coz ur not gonna like it, AT ALL……

Hello, Goodbye

Hello its me
a silent soul
headed towards eternity

I live my life
alone in black and white
while my morbid thoughts
absorb me

BLACK is the only color I see
and the world is pitch dark to me
but I always hide neath
my own fake identity

'coz this is not
the me they see
for them
a mask is all they see

a man full of life
but a man who doesn't look bright
and this is the person they make fun of
this is the person they hurt and run-off

Silence is now song for me
Loneliness, the only music
and thanks to me for being me....
thanks to u for trying to save me.....